A casting call popped up on Naomi’s Actors Access account. Filming will take place five hours away and the pay is not great. However, the story is one that needs to be told, that we could be proud to be a part of. The film is based off of an autobiographical book about a woman who survived postpartum anxiety and alcoholism. Close to my heart, this is a subject that, at some point, I will undoubtedly have to discuss with Naomi.
After submitting Naomi for the role, I began to dig around on Facebook, looking into the directors, producers, and writers. It didn’t take me long to find them all and to scroll through their pages. I can be an expert troll when I want to be! I was quickly able to find a link to to the book. While it is unlikely that Naomi will even be considered for the role, I am beyond excited for this film. Without hesitation I purchased this book on Amazon.
Everything truly does happen for a reason. A little over six months ago, I felt called to write a book about my journey through postpartum depression. I even made a promise to God. However, after the first six chapters, I felt emotionally drained and creatively blocked. Since then, I have made every excuse I could possibly think of to put off writing, telling myself, “No one wants to read a book about postpartum depression anyway!”
A couple months after I stopped writing, I felt as though the world was weighing me down. I was becoming depressed again, and I had decided not to take Naomi to casting calls anymore. However, she insisted, constantly asking me when she would “get” to be on set again. Some kids like soccer or dance. At this moment in time, mine likes to act! So, I didn’t ignore the casting call on Actors Access. The casting call linked me to this book. The book reminded me of my call to advocate for postpartum depression/maternal metal health.
I am writing again! Thanks to this little God Wink! Writing this book is going to be emotionally draining, but I know that I am being called to write it. So many times I have tried to turn my back on my experience, but there has been this undeniable, persistent push to share my story. I don’t like confrontation or speaking in large crowds, but somehow I found myself sharing my story on the evening news, to my congregation, confronting healthcare professionals, and now writing this book.
God is truly synchronizing our lives with His plans. Sometimes you need to go through something terrible, but I promise you, God is with you. Let him be your strength when you are week. Follow the path that he sets for you even if you know it’s going to be cold, dark, and lonely. You will come out of it stronger and more prepared to serve Him.
Misfit 